Wait and See

Wait and see. Thats what God's teaching me. Sure I can wait and see if my laundry will do itself or if my mom will unload the dishwasher for me, but waiting for an answer from my parents about something thats really important to me is something I can't wait for. When God started to teach me to wait and see was this past week when I particapated in an intermediate day camp at Roselawn Stables. Roselawn Stables is a 60 acre horse ranch with about 45 horses on it. Before then I had helped out as a farm hand during my brother's basic camp. I was invited to stay up there for the week after my camp. I was ecstatic I couldn't believe it that was sooo exciting. They have a son and daughter that are my friends too so I would get to hang out with them and help out on a farm. I don't know if any of you know this but I'd love to be a farmer someday. I was really excited and I couldn't wait 'til I could tell my parents about it! At two 'o clock when my mom picked me, my sister and my friend Jake from camp that day I could wait to tell her so I just burst out and said, "Mom I got invited to stay at Roselawn for all of next week!" I was extremely happy. My mom told me that my sister was having a bday party this week so it wouldn't work out for the whole week but maybe Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday would work out. I couldn't believe it was accually working out for the most part! I told my dad and kept hounding both my parents to try to get an answer frome them but the needed time to think.Then on Sunday morning we got up and went to church. I didn't have any more contacts and I didn't know where my glasses were so I went to the sermon instead of youth group. The pastor talked about how Jesus would've been the worst drive thru person saying that he would say something like can I take your order okay you can pull around to the next window and I'm gonna have to ask you to pull over and wait because the person behind you might need your meal more than you. He said that our culture is a busy drive thru one where we expect what we want when we want it. I thought maybe God was talking to me but I still kept hounding them about it until later in the afternoon my mom got mad and said that if I asked one more time I wouldn't go at all! She also said that it was probably a no anyways because of all my hounding. I really wanted to go but I knew better than to keep hounding so I just tried to tell her that I was sorry and try to excuse it. My mom got annoyed and told me to just leave it up to God and that He'd take care of it. I got kinda upset and so my mom prayed for me and then I went outside to help my dad with an outside project the entire time thinking about that verse in the Bible saying, "Let not your heart be troubled, trust in God, trust also in me." My parents ended up saying I could only go for one night but at least they said yes. I've been talking to my instructor and she told me she needed to wait and see now because she wasn't so sure that she had something for me to do so I'm back to more waiting... Although its still hard to wait for herto call back, it gets easier as I go along.